Favorite quote of the moment // “Never be afraid to start over. It’s a new chance to re-build what you want.”
It’s a few months into 2018, and I am more excited than ever to get back into triathlons. After all, I took last year completely off from the swim, bike, run game to just relax, step away from structured training and racing, and simply have fun.
I’m looking forward to getting back to triathlons because that’s who I am at the end of the day. A triathlete. Riding bikes is fun, but it’s not who I am entirely. I’ve found that I need the swim and run components, too, to feel completely whole.
I won’t lie though, I was absolutely terrified to start swimming and running again after taking so much time off. Let’s be honest. I was never a strong runner to begin with — so, I was anticipating mile splits in the 11’s when I got back to it.
But, the human body is simply incredible, and things always seem to come around when you least expect it.
I’m running faster now than I ever have in my entire life. In fact, every single day that I go out for a run, I’m so mystified by what’s happening that I tell myself that it’s all a fluke, my Cinderella run-streak will soon be over, and I’ll be back to running to 10-minute miles in no time.
But, it’s NOT HAPPENING! I’m seeing 7’s and low 8’s on my Garmin time after time, and I’M PERMANENTLY PARKED ON CLOUD 9!
Reflecting // ….on this new Ironman journey. I’m already a steady mixture of irreversibly happy and utterly exhausted. But hey! Isn’t that the very essence of this race, you guys? Training just started to ramp up, and I’m loving every second of heart-pounding intervals, long trainer rides, and pushing myself to new levels mentally and physically.
When I did my first Ironman, people always talked about “the journey” ad nauseam. Honestly, it nearly made me start twitching towards the end of training because I was so sick of hearing about how important the “journey” is in lieu of the race.
But, here I am, nearly two years later….and I can say, without hesitation, the journey is EVERYTHING.
I’ve learned through trial and error that you can’t get wrapped up in THE race. You can’t focus on time goals. You can’t get fixated on trying to finish in a certain place, and you can’t dump all your energy into the unknowns and things beyond your control.
You can only control your mindset and what’s directly in front of you.
So, instead of focusing on the race — or qualifying for another race, or getting a PR — focus on whatever effort you can put forth on that specific day and whatever you need to do to get stronger for tomorrow.
If you do that, you’ve done all you can do. And whenever you show up to race, the rest will sort itself out.
And no matter how you place, you should be proud because it’s all the work that’s worth celebrating, not the end result.
Watching // Netflix! I’m literally probably the last person on Earth to get a Netflix account, but here I am. Finally….. and I AM IN LOVE! Every weekend, I’m consumed with documentary after documentary. I seemingly cannot get enough!
Reading // Lots of prayer & meditation books!
Focusing On // Self care. In the past, I’ve always had the tendency to put myself on the back burner. But, I decided to make it a primary goal in 2018 to focus on taking better care of myself. Now, I take baths several times a week. I watch, as mentioned above, shows on TV. I finally take the time to relax and decompress, and do it devoid of any guilt. It’s been a challenge, I’m not going to lie. I’m type A to the core, and it’s nearly impossible for me to sit anywhere, for any length of time, and relax. But, I’ve tried to do it more often and for longer stretches of time – bit by bit, piece by piece. I’ve realized that the more I fill into my “bucket” and focus on my well-being, the more I’m able to give others. (Can’t serve from an empty vessel, right?) I feel much happier and way more refreshed when I make myself a priority.
Celebrating // I just celebrated my one-year anniversary at work! I can honestly say that I’ve felt fulfilled personally and professionally every single day of the past twelve months that I’ve walked through the door at the Michigan Health & Hospital Association. The work feels meaningful and deeply impactful. I’m able to write stories about the incredible work we’re doing regarding patient safety and quality in Michigan hospitals, while be surrounded by people who are smarter and more advanced than me. That combination has allowed me to stretch and grow in unfathomable ways, and I am so grateful.
Listening to // The Greatest Showman Soundtrack is my JAM whenever I’m on the treadmill — or in my car — or in my shower. Errrr…okay. I literally listen to it on repeat, everywhere I go. It’s SO good!
I wish you all warm thoughts (C’mon, Spring! Get here already!) and happiness.